Fading

It has been a long time since I've posted anything new. I'm sure I could list the fifty two reasons as to why but I'm going to save us all some time and just say, life.

I get distracted easily, it's a well known fact. I will give a project my all until something else steals my attention away. He would love to strangle me for it (it might be the numerous half finished projects that can be found in any room of our house) oops. I just seem to only have so much room in my head for all the day to day things, family, work and of course play time. There has been a major lack of that last one.

I'm sure I'm not the only one but a lack of sex makes me feel less sexy. The less sexy I feel, the less I want sex. A viscous cycle. Life just got to be too busy, first the sex stopped in trade for extra sleep and then the spanking stopped for, I don't know what reason. Even His demeanor towards me has changed. Last night we got into a snit and He said He just wasn't feeling as strong. It didn't make any sense to me last night, but it does this morning.

When we were having frequent play time with spankings on the side, He seemed more macho and confidant. His had that extra level of testosterone backing Him up. At least that's my theory. I on the other hand have been letting the inner nag and bitch come out because I don't have any consequences anymore. Not even a stern look. It's hard to feel submissive when there is no one to submit to.

I miss our private life, I hope we can get it back and that He still wants it.