Yes, I'm back.
I have been gone for awhile and for that I apologize. Thank you if anyone is still out there in blog land that has come here to read what I have to say. Things have been a little hectic lately and I really didn't feel like I had anything to say. The words just weren't there. There was sex and a little spanking but for the most part, we weren't the same.
We got wrapped up in work and family and all the things that make up a life but there was no submission and there was no dominance. I need those things to be truly content, I'm not going to use the word happy to describe how I feel when we are doing TTWD because happy is in the eye of the beholder and it's just too general a term for my taste.
We have a good solid marriage and relationship, we always have. Our sex life is the only thing that has ever faltered. I have a high sex drive (energy and opportunity permitting) and very specific tastes. I like it rough, loud, fun, and like to be told what to do or not do. I am a submissive, no doubt there. My husband is my master, though we don't use that word.
All in all, we lost that connection that is so important in TTWD. I stopped looking at Him as my Sir and He stopped looking at me like I belonged to Him and only Him. We are trying to get back to where we were and I hope we succeed. It's going to take a lot of communication and for us to set aside the time to work it out. I would also like to put in writing or at least a verbal agreement, on what we expect from each other. In the meantime while we are sorting everything out I'm sure I'll have stories to tell and I'll also be jumping on the 30 Days of Submission bandwagon. I'm planning on doing a few questions per post to help speed them along cause who has 30 days to commit to one thing? Lol
So tonight I'll do the first 3 and see how much I have time to answer in the coming days. Again, thank you to anyone that has come back after my absence.
1) Does your submission - either what you practice or what you strive for -have a label? Do you view your submission as Taken in Hand, domestic discipline, top/bottom, dominant/submissive, master/slave, owner/pet, or some other description or combination? If you do not use a label, why?
We just call it TTWD because it's a nice generalization for...well, this thing we do. I would say that we are a combination of mostly dominant/submissive with a little bit of domestic discipline.
2) Describe who you might submit to and how. Are you exclusively submissive in marriage or just in the bedroom? Are you submissive only in the context of a scene or in a role or throughout your daily life? Are you submissive to play partners or only in the context of a relationship?
I only submit to my husband, we do not do anything outside of our marriage. I submit sexually, He can use me however He desires, and I try to be as submissive as I can in daily life and I give my whole self during a scene. I don't really have the option to be submissive in my daily life because of my work. I don't know if we would ever consider play partners, it's not really an option around here anyway.
3) How do you know you are submissive or have the potential to be submissive? How do you feel when you express your submission?
When I first started having sex I liked to be forced or told what to do, so honestly it wasn't a surprise as I got older when I stumbled upon stories of this lifestyle and I immediately felt akin to the women in them. I feel cherished, safe, sexy and confidant when I submit. It's what makes me.....me. I think I could learn to be content without TTWD but I'd rather not find out.
- T
